awwmygod!!!! pple im back!!!! since the last 45 mins or so... im trying like freaking hell la to sign in. sheesh. so many awful things happened sice my alst entry.. so many wonderful things happend. yep, im at this cyber nye tempat, thx to rajab.. thx again for tellin me abt this place. bolehlah aku blog once again.. right here, am now with shariffah.

so many things happen. n sum, i dun appreciate it happening. the 'o' levels. yes. i am kinda disapointd at my agregate. pple say its ok, many of them do say that, but i juz cant accept it, prolly til d day i die. serious dok. r5 15, r4 11, no cca yet. thats so wat seh. its not wat i expected it to be. i xpected better but turns out im disapointd. pple hu i tink r worse off than me scored better man. well, i muz do a reality check from now on.

ngee ann poly mass comms. my, wat i tot, only choice, n prolly source of my happiness. but sadly, i m kinda forced to go to tp's comms n mdia mngemt. my mum never liked me to go to np. but thats where my heart n soul are u noe wat i mean. but i juz hope tp's a correct choice. i need to psycho myself.

ok, some time ago, i dreamt of HADY!!!! xxxoooo!! i dunno but in the dream, i was a vampire?? hahaha. n hady was so angry at me. he was like turning his face away n ignoring wat i was trying to say to him. sumhow, i felt despo in that dream.. sheesh. but his face was the same. with the cute small moles n tampan-ish face. melted me away... but then, a few days later, i dreamt i was in my guides uniform, n helping out with sometin ah. hady was looking and walking ryt up to me. i looked at him n jeling marah gitu. i walked away, but hady caught up with me, caught my arm, n n n n ... flirted with me, carrying my stuff for me, apologising la pe la. but sumhw i saw his mouth move but his voice was so inaudible. hahaha. flirt sak. i woke up smiling all the way, sampai midnite. mampos. in tat dream, kita mcm da kenal lama gitu, but i was disgusted by his presence. hady, i love u!!!! hahahaha

ok, i cant seem to forget all memories that i had with khairul u noe, chatting on d phone till late, his face, fking stupid face, his voice, his shoulders (y on earth muz it b shoulders i ask u??) Its terrible seh. i wanna start anew n i wanna let go. but i cant. klu muka macam hady ke, taufik ke, irwansyah ke takpe. ni macam kene langgar lori balak bawak kayu n tergolek kat road seh. evrytin keep rewinding n playing in my head like sum psychotic, neurotic player u noe. sickening, how painful these memories are for me.

thinking day. was so much xcitemt. tho at first it was kinda boring la. but i loved d finale a lot!!!!! first brownies came in with heelys, then guides on rollerblades, then YAs with bicycles, n can u imagine??? the commissioner n the orang tua of GGS naik harley davidson dok!!!! i was so fking happi n shocked!!!!!!! i was like hyperventilating. n yah, hannah, the second guy was muda, n he was the only cute one. did u notice?? hahaha.

love-sick, heart-wreching, sickening. when will the lionel lewis or hady mirza of my life appear??