uhz well.. i havnt been updating. frankly, girls, i m disappointed with khairul lah. i really didnt think that he was into black metal. im like sheesh. tat call was a rude awakening, a rude shock, definitely a mood spoiler during the sleepover. i feel so empty within n all so hollowed up by the event. it was terribly n definitely sometin to ponder upon. i didnt noe tat such a sweet n concerned guy be so into black metal. i mean, isit sometin to be worried about in d first place? im so confused. i cant judge him coz im not God. i dun hav d right. i hope evrytin clears up. phew. this is disgustingly stressful manz.

omanz.. im gonna really miss counter-guy at the gym, my 'beloved' one-eyed n maybe, Nur. haha. was so friggin nerve-wrecking lah. he goes to tat gym seh. sheesh. i was shaking like a leaf all over wen i spotted him pushing the glass doors. (caution: Nur is a guy, not a girl. fyi. im so totally straight) wat in d world shld i do? pls.. can we not go pasir ris nye gym?? pls? counter-guy is.. so.. friggin.. hot!!!!!! manz, i tink i melted into a puddle of me each time he's nearby. i wld go all red all over n i melt. melting, im melting.. summore with his specs. hehe, hes a specsy!! wow!!! hot specsy!! specsy hottie!! i tell ya how cute n kacak he is, hes minimum a thousand times better than HIM. yeah. not khairul la. i havnt met khairul b4. HIM. urgh. did u c his entry? mampos. jiwang tak tentu pasal. ckp je lelaki seh. man, guys nowadays are impossible man. girls jiwang takpe la. we're built to do tat man, not guys. lagi2 dia pasukan tentera sekolah. my gaaaaawd. the worlds cming to n end.

my insides are all waddled up together, n i feel so un'free' n tied n restricted. after the os i tot i was free. but i was damn wrong. instead, i got further tied down. evry single friggin move have to be reported to THEM. wat is this. this is so friggin unfair. i wanna c. wen my bro finishes his o levels nxt yr, i wanna c how much freedom hes given. i wanna c. i m all messed up now. i wonder hu has cast the evil eye upon me. hus so jealous of me being hapi n all.

prom's in a day's time. man, i tink my kebarung is gonna be so fking ridiculous la. i m sure i wil be the joke of the day. but nobody seem to undastand can they? its hard to find a formal attire for girls in tudung. going traditional is the only way, its made worse with me being horizontally challenged n so on. man. i tink i need a shoulder to cry on. i need somebody to talk to about my aches n pains. but hu? hus even willing to listen to me n my wretched stories?