almost all my entries n their paragraphs start with 'ok'. wat wif that? hahaha. ok, (c?) i cant describe it. i seriously cant. i dunno wats it like. its like, u want to c this person all the time, but u are afraid to approach. u r also afraid to talk to the person. but at the mention of the name, all your blood will rush to your face n u will develop a mini, not harmful, sort-of parkinson's disease on your whole body. u start shaking, tremoring, but u feel a nice feeling n sensation. u want to feel like that evryday, but u cant coz u dont meet that person evryday n the people around u noe more than you do about that person. that is such a freaking huge dilemma n terrible ordeal for those who dun noe how to handle it, moreover voice it out. am i accurate in describing? or at least near target? haha..

yeah. i hope my message goes to d right pple. n d right pple can contact me n see wat can b done.

shit. i dun want another khairul episode. seriously. i dun want. but sumhw i got this naggy feeling tat i will face many more khairul episodes. i juz wan a normal episode, where it is mutual. where it becomes my pillar of strength. omanz, he is wat year anyway? year3 or year 2? i dun noe.

"Setelah bulan-bulan berlalu, mentari pula menyusur lalu, itulah saat terpaterinya janji kita. manakan sama dikau yang cinta, dengan segala rasa, itulah janji kita.."