Don't you think Didicazli is such a GENIUS?
I LOVE THIS SONG TO THE CORE!
His voice, the lyrics. Ooh, enchanting. Lemak ke pe suara dia!

Dambaan Cinta

Ungkapan kata selindung hasrat yang di hati
andainya ditafsir terserlah
makna yang tersembunyi
renungan mata bukan pandangan biasa

Bertahun handai terjalin hingga waktu ini
Gurauan mesra menghiasi masa kita bersama
Semakin berputik perasaan ini

Kini baru ku sedari selama ini kau ku sayangi
Andai bukan itu hakikatnya
Mengapa rindu yang ku rasa
Mungkin tiada ku fahami
tidak dapatku nafikan lagi
beban rahsia kian membakar diri

Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta
Mungkinkah dibiar terdampar
kasih tak kesampaian
naluri bisik bukannya dambaan cinta

Kini baru ku sedari selama ini kau ku sayangi
Andai bukan itu hakikatnya
Mengapa rindu yang ku rasa
Mungkin tiada ku fahami
tidak dapatku nafikan lagi
beban rahsia kian membakar diri

Ikhlasku nyatakan kau yang ku sayangi
kau yang ku cintai
walau tak mampu ku miliki
ingin ku luahkan
mungkin satu hari
kan terbuka pintu hati
dapat jua kau terima diriku akhirnya

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Ok, I am extremely.. tired. I really.. Have never felt this dog-tired my whole life. Work really is tiring. Damn, I wanna study till I die! Haha. Fat hope.

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And I'm missing my abang angkat badly. How I wish he's in Singapore to talk, counsel and make me feel ok again. It's really damn cruel that he lives so, so far away and we just catch up on Facebook. He and I talk as though we are real brothers and sisters and bonded like crazy. I've talked to him for the past 2-3 months on Facebook.

And gosh, it's nice to have someone older than you but can connect and understand? Since I'm the eldest, I have sorta no 'support' system. So, with this abang, I can like get brotherly support lah kirekan. Oh yes, don't worry, he's married and a kid is coming in 7 months' time.

So, yes, he is my abang. :) Call him Kak Mad tho. He's Indonesian. Both of us actually plan to go to each other's place, him to Singapore and vice versa. So fun! Seriously, he's such a dear. We are siblings, just with different sets of parents though. His mum knows me too! So funny!